Oh My Father

I lay my sins on Jesus, The spotless Lamb of God; 
He bears them all, and frees me
From the accursed load, 
From the accursed load.

I bring my guilt to Jesus,  To wash my crimson stain
White in His blood most precious,
‘Till not a stain remains, ‘Till not a stain remains.

I long to be like Jesus,  Meek, loving, lowly, mild;
I long to be like Jesus,
The Father’s holy child,  The Fathers holy child. 60

Part 5

Oh my Father

I cannot comprehend the sacrifice of Christ as I should.    It is marvellous and wonderful, but my heart is so insensitive to the sufferings of My Saviour.

When I think of how much He suffered, I want to experience the sorrow of those who loved Him two thousand years ago.  I want to shed tears of bitterness for the humiliation He experienced on the cross.

My feelings of sadness do not seem real enough.   They do not do justice to the horrors of Christ’s sacrifice for me.  

I want a new experience in these things.

And I want to know more of what You suffered Father.  Your suffering has sometimes been forgotten, but You gave Your Son.

“God so loved the world, that He gave His only-begotten Son..…” – yes Father, You gave Your Son to the fallen race, not just to bear our sins, and die our sacrifice, but to retain His humanity forever.  52    And His hands and feet will always bear the scars of His triumph over sin, never to be erased. 53    

My mind cannot take it in.

And the risk of failure was immense.   You could have lost Your Son for eternity…..  54

What a decision!

No wonder it took some time to decide. Abraham’s anguish was great, but how small our sphere of suffering when compared to Your mental torture Father! 

Christ is Your only Son.   I know You have a whole universe of created sons, but You have only One who is begotten in Your own image.   Only One who is the same nature as Yourself;  the very image of You. 55

Father, I want to be like Him.   When He took humanity, You gave Him Your Spirit that He might represent You to this world. 56   I want that same power so that I too can rightly represent You in the world. 

I want to be like Jesus.

I ask You now to fulfil the desire of Your Son that He will be in me, as You are in Him. 57     I long for the Spirit that was in Him to be in Me, for then it can be truly said, ‘Christ in me, the hope of glory’. 58

Bless this desire of my heart Father.

I praise You that Christ is alive.   He lives, and is seated on the right hand of Your glorious throne, mediating between You and me.  59

Cover me with the blood Father, in the precious name of Jesus, Yeshua the Messiah.

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Based on Psalm 139.
1 John 4:8.
Zech 6:12.13.  PP. 63.64.  DA 834.
1 SM 226.
1 SP 48.  SR 45.
DA 49.
Hebrews 4:15.
John 14:15.
DA 677.
EW 288.
1 SP 45.
Ibid.  EW 126.
DA 22
Isaiah 53:7.
Isiaah 53:11.
Nahum 1:9
1 SP 45
1 SP 48.
1 SP 47.48.
PP 151.152.
Genesis 22:2.
PP 151.2.
Genesis 22:5.
Genesis 22:6.
Heb 11:19. PP 151.152.
Gen 22:7.
Gen 22:8. PP 152.
PP 152.
Gen 22:11-13.
PP 155.
Galatians 3:8.
Hebrews 11:19.  PP 155.
John 8:56.
PP 155.
Matt 26:26.38.  DA 686.
Matt 26:39
Matt 26:40.41.
DA 689.
DA 656
Matt 26:42.
DA 687

DA 686.7. 690. 693.
tt 26:41.
Isaiah 63:3.
Isaiah 53:6.7.10. 
DA 693.
Matt 26:46.
Mark 15:16-25.
PP 154.155.
DA 693. Matt 27:45.46.50.
John 3:16. DA 25.  Luke 24:39.Acts 1:9-11.

5BC 1125.  RH Mar 9. 1805.       
DA .131. 690.  ST. Jan 5.1915. ST May 12. 1915.
Job 38:6.7. Heb 11:1-8.     

ST Feb 22. 1892. ST Nov 4. 1895.
John 17:20-23.
Colossians 1:27.
Heb 8:1. 12:2. 1 Tim 2:5.
Horatius Bonar. 1843.   Hymn No.298.